Structure

I’m a wheel stuck in a rut. Every day going through the same motions. Every day going the same path.

I love it.

It’s my rut.

I know it so well. I know what to expect. And even when something unexpected happens, it’s still in the acceptable range. It’s still something I can let go of after a glass of wine in the evening.

But then something pushes me. I start to shake. I start to lose control. And before I know it I am gone from my rut. My rut is nowhere to be seen. I am in a great big field full of the unknown.

I don’t know where I am. I don’t know where I’m going. Where did I come from? And did it even make sense to come this far? I start to question everything. I panic. I can’t go back to my rut. The only thing I can think of is making a new one. Start going in circles again.

Is this the best way?

What else can I do.

I need structure. Otherwise I don’t know what to do with myself.

Except write about it.

High above Ljubljana

I travelled to Slovenia for the first time at the end of October. Autumn travelling is a risky ordeal, you never know if you are going to get sunny days or wet feet. We got both actually, but we were lucky and the rain didn’t ruin any of our plans. We stayed in Ljubljana for 3 nights, in a hotel with a Robert Frost quote on the wall, and we explored a bit of the country outside of its capital. We ended up not spending that much time in Ljubljana actually, apart from the evenings and a walking tour we did shortly before leaving. We managed to go to Ljubljana’s first skyscraper though – the Nebotičnik – which has a cafe on it’s thirteenth and final floor, from which you get a 360 degree view of the city. Continue reading “High above Ljubljana”

Looking back and looking forward

Happy New Year, my dear Readers!

For me, 2015 was one of the hardest, but ultimately one of the most successful years of my life. I got my Master’s Degree, I traveled around a bit and I finally found  a full time job, that I enjoy. If I say it like that it sounds amazing, even to me, but the reality was far from it. Months and months of confusion, anxieties, stress, stress, stress, uncertainty, health problems and panic attacks. I remember a day in the heat of summer when I looked at the state of me and thought that by the end of the year I will either have my shit together or I will be in a mental institution. Thank God it was the first.

Continue reading “Looking back and looking forward”

Hello

As per tradition, the first post has to be an introduction.

Welcome to my blog!

As I have often been guilty of pessimism throughout my life (or as I call it – realism), I will try to focus on the good things here. Hence the title – looking for enchantment.

I have used the nickname Disenchanted around the web since a very impressionable 17-year old me looked up the meaning of the name of a My Chemical Romance song in the dictionary and thought “that song gets me”. Today, years later, I might be a different person, right down to my cells, but the mindset of being disenchanted has stuck around. It is time to question that.

Hence this blog. It a place for all things I find amazing, noteworthy or just cool. Coolcoolcool.

Enjoy!